As much as I think I crave pop, sometimes I really hate it. I forced myself to drink the required 4 cans sometimes, to teach myself to hate it. I remember drinking it in the morning and crashing heavily, because I had no caffeine. I sleep and sleep, I even tried to counter it with a multivitamin. But it only works so well. The more I drank it, the more I’d feel wonky headed or nauseated. My body is really sensitive to the sugar now. I have to drink water now, just to not feel dehydrated. I didn’t realize that in fact I have been feeling bad because my body was lacking water, and pop is just complete and utter shit for the body.
I have to drink water now, not to feel wonky headed as well. Just to stop myself from being dizzy from drinking too much pop. I often drink pop on an empty stomach, I’m not that tempted to eat first thing in the morning. But there was nothing like a good Pepsi in the morning. The caffeinated variety was always my go to, without the caffeine I’d crash. Much as I am now. I do notice though if you drink a glass of water first thing, it is very good at waking you up. It’s been hard struggling at work to get through when I’m really tired without caffeine. But with my medication the caffeine would make my hyper-anxious and that wasn’t good. Pretty much to the point of hyperventilation, so getting off the caffeine was a no-brainer.
I though I did 2 weeks of 4 cans already then I checked back and realized I had one more week of 4 cans a day. I was ready to go down to three because of how bad I was making myself feel, so I have one more week of this crap and then I can go down to three. For several years I drank Diet Pepsi, and somehow, I got tempted back into regular. I tried to get back on to diet and I just couldn’t I found it made me feel worse, and I just couldn’t stand the taste anymore. The aftertaste of aspartame is raunchy. I am glad that I’m taking this step though, beyond just going down to diet as aspartame is bad for you too. There is so much information out there about it being bad, that I don’t think it’s wrong. Much of the information makes sense and I tend to go with what makes sense to me. My mother would rather I drank regular pop then diet. I am still up in the air as to which is worse overall.
See you next update.
